I’ll be honest, I’m dragging my feet a little on checking in this week. I honestly felt like it wasn’t like anyone would notice if I missed one week, right? Truth is, I could very much get away with it and no one would really say a word about it. However, that’s not how I want to take charge and follow through. I really am not worried about checking in because I have been bad. I actually have just been having some low days emotionally. I’ve had a lot going on and I’ve really felt like I’ve been struggling not to have my emotional cup run dry every day. I’ve really been pushing myself to my limit. I won’t bore you with all the nitty gritty details of what has been going on with my life, family, work, the like. However, just want to be honest with where I am at and the normal everyday struggles.
What I need to be doing is more self-care. I know that I should take a minute or a few minutes throughout the day to wind down and center myself. Maybe I can take a couple minutes in another room without kids and forget my tasks and meditate. I also probably need to prioritize a little more the most important tasks. Sometimes I just need to relax if I don’t finish all my tasks. This is SOOO much easier said than done! A lot of times I find myself staying up late trying to finish just a couple more things in my day. The biggest thing that I need to focus on is staying positive.
I have opened up a bit about my struggle with depression. It’s been something I have struggled with on and off with for a while. I’ve had good years and bad years. So, I really don’t look down on myself for having days that are an emotional struggle. It is going to happen now and again. The thing that I focus on is that it doesn’t change what I am capable of, or how strong I am. I’ve said before that in order to take control of your life is to change what is an excuse into an obstacle. Well enough of my going on about my obstacles. Let’s go over some of the goals that I worked on this week.
Mental, Physical, Spiritual – I have been doing the reading challenge every day and loving it. I’ve mentioned before that I used to read a ton. It’s nice to get back into this hobby. Physical I have been doing better at this week. I have done some sort of physical exercise every day. I’ve got three days that I have done running, two days that I have done yoga and I’ve done some new dancing work out videos. I do love some fun dancing.
Ragnar – As mentioned in the last goal, I have been running. I have focused the last week on speed instead of distance. Trying to focus on keeping a good running pace instead of a slower jog. I haven’t really been tracking time just starting at a faster run and trying to maintain that.
Adventures – We were able to FINALLY purchase a tent and some sleeping bags. The boys were so excited about it that we decided to try a night out in our backyard. It ended up being a loud and windy night. It was actually a lot of fun, despite not getting great sleep with the wind shaking the tent. I thought it might take a little bit of practice to get the boys to embrace it. However, they loved it and immediately asked when they could do it again.
April Challenge – I set forth the April Challenge as a social positivity challenge. It is actually much easier to spread positivity to those around me than it was to look inward. I have made concerted efforts to put into words and tell some of the people I love most how much I love them and why. I also was able to plan a climbing excursion for my family and another family that we hadn’t officially met in person. They were so much fun! We really enjoyed ourselves and possibly made some great friends in the process. We’ve already talked about some times we might be able to get together again.
Pushups – So, on this particular goal I am trying to push past an obstacle that has been making it a bit difficult. I have had a problem with having an excess buildup of lactic acid in my body. It means mosquitoes absolutely love to bite me; I’ve learned recently they are attracted to the lactic acid. I’ve had some major pain and tension and knots in my upper back. My spine has had to be adjusted multiple times a day every day for over a week. I’ve been doing hot and cold therapy and pressure therapy. Thankfully I have had some improvement, but it has been slow. I have still been able to get to 20 pushups on good days.